life's a bitch

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 04:50:49 GMT

To all my friends;
I love you. No matter how often I see you.
I also love captain morgan and jello shots.
That is all.
Sincerely,
Drunk Heather.

Wed, 27 May 2009 06:14:25 GMT

I'm alive, I guess.

Just thought I'd let ya know.

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 18:29:36 GMT

so here we are again, the same old arguement and now I'm wonderin if things will ever change

When will we laugh again, laugh like we did back when we make noise til 3 am and the neighbors would complain

All the things we talk about you know they stay on my mind.
All the things we laugh about they'll bring us through it every time.

K, SO

Fri, 06 Mar 2009 00:11:17 GMT

I can't find The Higher- Histrionics ANYWHERE so if someone wants to just go ahead and burn that cd for me ill give you 5 dollars, a huge hug and maybe even some icecream.

hey

Mon, 09 Feb 2009 17:27:17 GMT

Fuck you.

I'm too far into this.

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 00:17:43 GMT

I can't stand seeing it, reading about it, knowing its happening. It KILLS me. I don't have the right, I know that. Its just all too real now, the reality of everything is setting in. The past is the past, and it will remain that way I guess.

Wed, 28 Jan 2009 20:00:26 GMT

(1) List 16 celebrities you would have sex with without even asking questions.
(2) Put all of them in order of your lust for them. (1 is the hottest.)
(3) Say which movie/show/thing it was that hooked you.
(4) Supply photos.
(5) Tag five people!

I tagggg lisa, stef, kate santerre, erik, aaaaand danielle smith! Do it.

1. Johnny Depp-pretty much everything

2. Hayden christiansen-NOT STAR WARS.. Life as a house.

3. Zach Braff- 6 seasons of scrubs!

4. James Franco- spiderman 1,2,3

5. Ryan Reynolds- van wilder

6. Josh Hartnett- hollywood homicide

7. Brad Pitt- Mr. & Mrs. Smith

8. Shia lebouf- disturbia

9. Mark Wahlberg- invincible

10. Terrance Howard- The Brave One

11. Eric Szmanda- CSI

12. Jake Gyllenhaal-donnie darco

13. Chris Carraba- dashboard confessional

14. George Clooney- ER

15. Harry Connick jr.-will&grace

16. Scarlett Johansson- the island. Shes one hot woman

Mon, 12 Jan 2009 18:13:31 GMT

Who sells toilets on craigslist?

Better yet, who looks for toilets on craigslist?
Does anybody know?

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 19:01:26 GMT

FUCK YOU.

And I'm not even kidding.

Mon, 29 Dec 2008 19:55:10 GMT

I can't seem to find a happy medium between work and home life.

I went from working 60-80 hours a week to working.. Not even 20. It drives me up a wall. I used to look forward to going home and going to bed. Now I look forward to tuesdays and fridays when I go to work. And its gonna be like that for the next 2 months.

this time last year I had no job for 2 months. That's how slow it was at the pedlar. And the girls from college are home so they want all the hours they can get. Which I don't feel is fair, because they aren't here all year long and they're going to come in during our slowest time of the year and take hours away from people who work there all year long and rely on that paycheck? Yeah.

I've been at that place for.... a year and like 4 months or some shit. Which is huge for me because I quit jobs like its nobodys business. And I've been working 2 jobs for the last 6 months. Which.. I know people who go to school and work 2 jobs so its no big deal, but for me it is.

I'd love to just work a set 40 hours a week and not have to worry if I'm going to make enough money for my bills...and chas' but that's another story.

Tue, 02 Dec 2008 05:44:50 GMT

I haven't used an ljcut in like 3 yrs. So I prolly did that wrong.

Viper drinking my hot chocolate!

Viper taking a nap next to my crotch.

Jamie, Molly and I during out arbor mist party. A little shitty.

Mike wearing my bowtie while playing beer pong.

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Me and candace being wicked awesome.

Jiggy thinking he's human.

Me and Chasss at the blandford fair.

Tue, 02 Dec 2008 01:05:47 GMT

Like BadaBoom I haven't updated this like with a legit post in like, 76 years.

This past week has been hell, work wise. I went from like 25hrs to 53. but its awesome. I made.... 630 dollars this week in tips. And 90% of it is gone in cell phone bill, rent, insurance, and christmas presents. And the next few weeks are gonna be the exact same. So ill have a good start for saving money up for an apartment, the wedding, and a car in february.
As for christmas, me and chas finished getting presents for... his mom, jerry, larry, and jiggy lol and my mom, dad, step mom, chris, and my two little brothers. I still have to get presents for.. Lisa, stef, erik, nancy and if I have money left eriks parents, and brother and sister. So hard when you're shopping for two different families !
The only bad thing about working so much is that school keeps getting pushed to the back burner more and more. I only planned on taking a year off so I could work as much as possible and save up money, so that when it came time to go to school, I would have money and wouldn't be working so hard. But with everything that has happened in the last year I have a total of 200 dollars saved.. Ugh. No matter what happens, I'm going to school for resturaunt management in the fall.. First thing they'll have to do is teach me how to spell resturaunt.

then there's the fact that the only time I see chas now is 20 minutes before bed, and 20 minutes after I wake up. With my 50hr weeks and his 40hr weeks there's just no time. Nevermind seeing my friends, the only one I ever see now is erik and that's only because I work with him. And its not by choice. When I'm not working, lisa or stef are, when they're not working I am or I am in so much pain from work that I can't even bare the though of moving from my bed. I haven't hung out with lisa & stef in... a month or two. Yeah? Work is sucking my social life away from me? I don't think so.
Oh, and for the last 4 or 5 years, stef lisa and I have gone to stefs house and exchanged our gifts on christmas eve.. And guess who has mandatory work that day? Fuckk. I remember last christmas we went to a trucker resturaunt at 12am. It was probably the best start to a christmas ever hahaha.

Anyway, I'm gonna go work on getting some pictures together to make a photo entry. Cuuuz I have a few awesome ones :)

<3

Thu, 23 Oct 2008 17:24:46 GMT

If I save money some expense will come up where I need to spend it.. like the car that we barely get to use needs gas, or to be reregistered, or the insurance is due. Or chas needs money for this or that.. And all of the sudden, the 150 dollars I try to put away is down to 20.

the food gale buys with the 60 dollars a week Chas, Robbin and I give her is gross and all dinner food.. If I, buy my own food, food that I like, and if I don't share all of it with everyone in the house then I'm selfish. How am I selfish if I go out and spend 80 dollars on groceries for me and chas and then I don't want to share everything with everyone else... for example, I bought ice cream. Low fat, low calorie ice cream that everyone said they hated, and I have one bowl I go back 3 days later, there's not even enough for another bowl... ugh.

And please tell me how I can pour over 500 dollars into a car.. And then be told that I have no respect for gale when were gone for 3 hours doing things we needed to do... and then have her take the car keys away and say we can't drive it. Yeah she lets us use it for work, that's it. And I'm still expected to put gas in it all the time when I'm not the one who needs it? But I have to do it, otherwise we can't use the car we need to get to and from work.

Someone help me make sense of this, she's driving me up a wall. If I'm wrong, someone tell me.. But I don't feel like I am.

Thu, 16 Oct 2008 21:55:34 GMT

why is this so complicated?
Why does it hurt so much?

Thu, 02 Oct 2008 20:04:57 GMT

I can't stop.

Its like potato chips and masturbation.

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 03:55:46 GMT

Glad everyones summer was awesome!
All I did was work two jobs, and try to hang out with people who weren't ever around. Went to the beach once, for a couple hours. End of summer.
Now... ill work two jobs and not bother trying to hang out with people who aren't around anymore.

Sweeeeeet!

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 01:08:42 GMT

I haven't updated in quite a while...

Hu ke lau is really good. I work all day tuesday in the dining room and then friday in the show room. Come see me! I make decent tips, and (most) of the people who come in are wicked chill. There's a few people I can't stand who work here, but the rest are really nice and help me out when I have questions. Edison, one of the managers, decided that they were going to have a contest today between me and the other two girls who were working... to see who could sell the most stir fry.. The winner got 20 bucks! I won! I only sold 4 soo that tells you how much people want stir fry lol.

I haven't been spending a lot of time at home lately, but that's not cuz of Chas its his god damn mother. I now pay 60 dollars a week for rent, which isn't a lot I guess but it really doesn't leave me with much money to save for myself between that and my 110 dollar cell phone bill every month and gas to get to and from both jobs all week. But whatever its barely living I guess.

I went to hampton beach yesterday for the first time all year. Found 121 dollars on the bathroom floor! So excited since I didn't really have a lot of money to spend. I got a bracelet, one of those neclaces with the rice in it that they write names on... soo cute, some shorts and a head band for myself. I got sara the same kind of neclace, chas a shirt, my dad a sticker of a little boy with a boston shirt peeing on a yankee baseball!! Yesss and I got erik a shirt. I never know what to get stef and lisa :( but I might go back this weekend with more money soo ill figure something out haha. Went swimming, loooove the ocean. And got my picture taken with candace and a parrot! The parrot was giving me the death glare in it though :(

All in all, I get 2 or 3 days off a week, and I love it. I'm going to college sometime in the fall hopefully. I love itbecause you can start the first monday of every month so if I can't do it, I can just start the next month.

that's about it!

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 18:02:24 GMT

How is it that I work my fucking ass off all week and have nothing to show for it at the end of the week?

Wed, 04 Jun 2008 19:11:47 GMT

First of all, lets start with the fact that I pay 25 dollars a week to live here, and on top of that I spend 50-75 dollars a week on food, and 25 for gas. Sooo that adds up to about, 100-125 dollars a week. I would be able to afford a fucking car at that price.

Which brings me to my next point, gas. Chas, Gale and I share the car. She doesn't work, he doesn't work, but I do. So yes I use the car more than she does. So I should put more gas in, I understand that. But has chas and I run around and do errands for her all the time, and she hardley ever puts gas in... SO yesterday Gale used the car to go to a job fair, keep in mind she hasn't put gas in for over 2 weeks, when she comes back and chas and I need the car, its on E so I have to use money that I have saved for my tattoo to put gas in the car. I was mad about that, but it was just whatever... so today we wake up and she's leaving again.. And Chas VERY NICELY said mom, could you put gas in the car, heather has work tomorrow.. She flipped out and said "I PUT 8 DOLLARS IN THE OTHER DAY" [the other day was 2 weeks ago] and she was pissed cuz she didn't get to use it. Except, she has us running around for her all the time. And because were doing the running around, she sees it as us using the car and not her and that we should put the gas in. So since chas asked her to put gas in the car, and she flipped out and said we can't use the car anymore. So I'm back to asking for rides all the time.

Bullshit!

Oh, and if you're going to comment to tell me that a situation that you're in is worse, don't bother. I don't wanna hear it.
I'm just venting.

Tue, 06 May 2008 16:56:11 GMT

Friday was good, had the day off. Got my check, put some in the bank, went home and ordered pizza. So good.

Saturday, I worked from 930am to 11 at night. Needless to say I was exausted. But time actually flew. and from 5-11 I was working at the soda bar so I made like 30 bucks in tips. I was surprized with that since it was a high school prom. Came home and fell asleep around 1.

Sunday, I had work again at 9am. Oddly enough I didn't have any problems getting up and getting ready after working so much the day before. I worked a bridal shower, I love them because they're easy and they always wanna get out of there asap. I got out around 115. Went home, and took a shower. Watched some tv relaxed for a few hours.

Around.. 7 my dad called me and told me my gram passed away. Chas and I left right away to go to her house. She was still there, I've never seen my whole family at once.. Unless it was a holiday or something. The wake is thursday at the funeral home right next to elms. The funeral is friday at veterans cemetary in agawam. I have to go get clothes to wear, I don't own dress clothes. Chas is gonna go with me to both, I couldn't do it on my own. I asked my dad if I can play a song for her at the wake, hear me you by jimmy eat world, he said maybe. Maybe? Hi, I need to know now not the day of. Oh.. And I have work in the morning before the wake, and the night after the funeral. I guess I just don't know when to give myself a break. =/

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 16:23:13 GMT

Work is starting to completely take over my life... and I love it, oddly enough. I'd like to find another job though, this one is gonna get slow just as fast as it got busy. That's gonna suck.

For some reason I can't slep past like 9 am. But when I have to work.. At 10, I can't get up. What's up with thattt?

Hah, I guess I'm just gonna relax and watch chas' dog bark at the dogs on tv until I have to go to work..

Peaceeee

Wed, 16 Apr 2008 16:17:50 GMT

I haven't updated in about 2 months.
I'm not dead.

Tomorrow is lisas birthday, I have no money to do anything for her. I dunno what were going to do buuut well figure it out! :)
Better be nice out!

I don't really know what else to say.

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 10:09:02 GMT

im fine
im fine
im fine
im fine
..im going to be fine.

Tue, 12 Feb 2008 08:12:03 GMT

Why am I up til all hours of the night, thinking myself to death?
I've come to the conclusion that I killed the only thing that was holding us together, literally.
I keep myself busy at all hours of the day, so I have no time to think about it. But when I come home at night, I can't sleep and ALL I do is think. It's 3 o'clock in the morning, I probably won't go to bed until 5 or 6, and I'll probably be up around 11. That's fine with me though, I don't like sleeping. How could I do this to myself for 4 and a half years? God, I'm the stupidest person I know.
I need to get out of this place, but at the same time.. I want someone to just be like.. No, stay I need you here. Fuck, that's honestly all I need... to be needed. I know when Lisa & Stef read this.. they're going to be like what the fuck is wrong with you, we just had this conversation yesterday! I don't even know at this point.
I miss my family.
I miss my aunt, it's been like 8 years since she was killed but I miss her so fucking much.
I miss my niece and nephew. I missed my nephew's first birthday.
I miss Chris.
I miss arguing with my stupid step dad.
I fucked up so young, I should have just listened to them.
But if I had to stay anywhere.. I'm glad it was at one of my best friends house.
I'm all over the place.
Fuck.

Time changes everything
Life must go on
And I'm not gonna stand in your way

Wed, 06 Feb 2008 04:42:21 GMT

I DON'T NEED YOU ANYMORE

anyway, to make things as simple as I can...
I don't care where else I live.. ever. No matter where I go, who I meet or any other friends I make in life.. the people I have right here, in this house, in this city, in this state, are the best I think I could ever find. Through the fights, the lies, the ups the downs, I dont care, NO ONE can top my friends. NO ONE. The one's I've had for 18 years to the one's I've had for 18 days.. my friends are amazing.
I've been a really shitty person lately, and it's all because of Chas. No more excuses, I will never let someone make me so unhappy ever again.

Yes this cat is my friend!

Amir is definatly my friend.

they're my friends too!
yeah, allen too!

Sorry Candace, you give me so little pictures to choose from!
HOOTERS!

Yeah we'll throw one of Joe in there!
JUST KIDDING TWO!
still a favorite :)

and that my friends, is life
<3